Lorde Used To ‘Chew A Gummie Or Drink A Tequila’ For Her Stage Fright

Singing on stage in front of a crowd can't be easy, even for people who sell out stadiums. Five shows into her Solar Power tour, Lorde opened up in a Tuesday (April 12) email to her newsletter subscribers about how her performance anxiety struggles have been since her return to touring.

“I don’t think I realized, back when we booked these more intimate shows, just HOW psycho the feeling in the room would be,” she wrote. “And my stage fright is barely a factor now — I just feel calm, keen to hang with you for an hour and a half. That feels different now, more manageable, more on my terms.”

The 25-year-old singer-songwriter third revealed, “I used to come offstage and feel like I had stepped from one planet onto another, the adrenaline spike being so massive, the fear response I’d had to counteract so immense,” she continued. “I’d have to chew a gummy or drink a tequila just to come down a little bit.”

The New Zealand native says she’s now adopted a new post-performance ritual of writing down details about people she sees in the audience, like “someone in a sun costume, someone in old merch, someone with beautiful eye makeup, someone who’s hype the entire time, someone who barely sings a word but is completely focused.”

Lorde's Solar Power released today, after four years since her last album, Melodrama. Inspired by experiences in the sun, Lorde took an environmental approach to the release of her new music -- she isn't going to be selling any physical CD's, being fully carbon neutral.

Watch the music video for one of the most well-received songs on the album, "Mood Ring" below:

One user pointed out the song title names reflecting solar power, with "Fallen Fruit" being food insecurity, while "The Man with the Axe" is deforestation, "Dominoes" is continuous environmental degradation, "Big Star" is a waning sun, "Leader of a New Regime" is eco-fascism and "Oceanic Feeling" is the melting icecaps.

This fan kept it simple with a very helpful thread for those who don't like Solar Power: get therapy.

The album cover may evoke youth and happy times, but as this fan points out, it gets quite sad.

One fan quoted the line, "Forget all the tears you cried, it's over" from the song "Solar Power." This gif of a mustached man crying totally sums it up.

As many of us went into listening to the album, there wasn't any forewarning on just how sad some of the songs would be like this meme illustrates.

One fan credited Lorde for making one of the best albums they've heard this year.

One fan tweeted a series of inspirational and motivational growth photos to summarize how it felt after listening to the album.

Many fans raved about the 11th song appearing on Solar Power, with the music video released earlier this week.

As this fan points out, Lorde wrote the song "Big Star" for her dog Pearl so that he'd know how much she loves him and "I don't know how to finish this album without pausing every five minutes."

"pure heroine was lorde’s growing up album and melodrama was her growing pains album and solar power is so clearly lorde finally settling into herself," one fan said.